Last October (due to high demand, and the insane reality of daycare/preschool wait lists), we placed a deposit at Chesterbrook Academy in order to reserve a space for Roscoe in the 09/10 school year.
I have only 12 weeks of maternity leave left, and I'm beginning to think through what it might be like to leave Roscoe in the care of someone else for a majority of the day.
I have identified my primary concerns and they revolve around two themes:
1. Attachment Parenting
2. Quality of life
Andy and I are definitely left leaning when it comes to our parenting. We've made choices based on our instincts (and in some cases a lot of research), and our belief that we know what's best for our kid and our family. Since Roscoe's birth, we've really just followed his lead. He is an intense and sensitive little boy that thrives when his "high touch" needs are met. For us, this translates to close physical contact with Roscoe throughout the day and night by sleep sharing, sling carrying, and holding him as much as he needs to be held--which is pretty much always. :)
The Attachment parenting philosophy advocates that "attachment to and dependency on parents... is a normal, healthy aspect of childhood and not something that needs to be discouraged." The AP mindset "sees infants not as manipulative adversaries who must be 'trained' to eat, sleep, and play when told, but as dependent yet autonomous human beings whose wants and needs are intelligible to the parent willing to listen, and who deserve to be responded to in a reasonable and sensitive manner."
As it is, Roscoe is almost always in physical contact with either me or Andy. And he doesn't sleep alone, with the exception of one nap a day that he takes in The Swing. We think the idea of spoiling a baby is B.S. but we do understand and appreciate that the way in which we make ourselves available to Roscoe at home may create for him a difficult transition to daycare when the time comes. It is not likely that Chesterbrook, or any mainstream childcare facility, has enough resources/staff to uphold the AP standard of care. I worry about how he will manage in an environment where he cannot be held all day, and where he will be expected to nap alone in a crib.
Another unfortunate aspect of my return to work, will be to assume again the inevitable 3 hour commute. Let's do some math. 24 hours in a day minus 2 hours to get everyone fed, dressed, packed, and out of the house minus a 3 hour commute minus at least 8 hours clocked at the office minus 7 hours of interrupted sleep = 4 hours of leisure time left at the end of the day.
To further complicate things, there is one (and only one) extracurricular activity that I must find time for: THE GYM. For my physical and mental health/sanity, it is the one thing I cannot sacrifice.
As of now, our hypothesized routine will play out as follows:
Wake at 5:30
Leave the house at 7:30
Andy drops Jacqueline off at the commuter lot, then drops Roscoe off at Chesterbrook
Jacqueline and Andy work 9:00 to 5:00
Reverse the commute
A, J, and R arrive home around 6:30/7:00
R goes to bed between 7:00 and 8:00
To be honest, that schedule sounds pretty awful!
At what point in the day will Andy and I get some face time? How about the thought of seeing Roscoe for only one or two hours each day? And when will I go to the gym?
I know this balancing act is common within young family households, but seriously, it feels like a ridiculous position to be in. I know that the needs of our family will change over time. In some ways the challenges of circumstance may be alleviated, and in other ways (hey! did we mention we want 4 kids?!) our days are only going to become more complicated and require even more resources.
On one hand, I feel very strong in my position as Roscoe's mother, and the reality of that responsibility and opportunity is hard to walk away from. Right now, nothing seems more important than taking care of my family. On the other hand, I have a lot to offer professionally and my desire to make an impact on the world in a way that is meaningful and satisfying has always been important to me.
I know that a solution doesn't lie in extreme "all or nothing" approaches, and I'm thankful to have 12 more weeks to find a compromise that will work for us. Next week I'll contact the Principal at Chesterbrook to begin a dialogue about what is possible for Roscoe's care. And Andy and I will continue to brainstorm ways to maximize our time together as a couple and as a family, and to cut down on time spent driving to and fro in this congested urban sprawl.
For fun click here to check out a floor plan of the new childcare facility that just moved in down the road. It's called Creme De La Creme (lol!) and costs almost $1800 a month!
July 12, 2009
Cousins!
Over the July 4th weekend, Roscoe and Mack got to hang out for a second time. Isn't Mack sweet? Thanks to one very squirmy subject, even with two cameras this was the best shot we got!
Growing up, I always wished to live closer to our extended family. The Ragos kids have some great cousins on the Smith side, and it would have been nice to have spent more time with them when we were little. Now, I wish the same for Roscoe; despite the distance, it would be so cool if the Dietz/Sears boys could see each other often enough to really become buddies.
We're all looking forward to welcoming Mack's little brother in November. With the red hair gene dominating so far, who guesses that cousin #3 will be another redhead?
Growing up, I always wished to live closer to our extended family. The Ragos kids have some great cousins on the Smith side, and it would have been nice to have spent more time with them when we were little. Now, I wish the same for Roscoe; despite the distance, it would be so cool if the Dietz/Sears boys could see each other often enough to really become buddies.We're all looking forward to welcoming Mack's little brother in November. With the red hair gene dominating so far, who guesses that cousin #3 will be another redhead?
July 10, 2009
BB shots
....and the closest thing to a smile we've caught on camera so far:
This picture really doesn't do him justice; his head's practically cut off, and we didn't even catch his dimple. :) We'll try again later.
July 9, 2009
"Special Agent" Jon
Today our good friend (and neighbor) graduated from the FBI Academy!
For the past 21 weeks he lived on campus and came home only on the weekends.
We knew he was working hard while he was away, but as we toured the grounds this afternoon I really got a sense for how physical, intense, and exciting his training must have been.
We're so proud of him! What an awesome achievement!
For the past 21 weeks he lived on campus and came home only on the weekends.
We knew he was working hard while he was away, but as we toured the grounds this afternoon I really got a sense for how physical, intense, and exciting his training must have been.
We're so proud of him! What an awesome achievement!
July 4, 2009
July 3, 2009
Independence Day*
I just returned from my first post pregnancy run!!!
It felt so good to get out on my own and back to the thing that means so much to me!
Only 12 baby pounds left!
*This post was made possible by The Swing.
It felt so good to get out on my own and back to the thing that means so much to me!
Only 12 baby pounds left!
*This post was made possible by The Swing.
July 2, 2009
Time and Money
While some women shop for shoes, purses, or other fashion accessory, the object of my shopping affection has been for a long time paint chips, textiles, and upholstery. I love agonizing over the details of shade, shape, and form vs. function.
Shopping for items to furnish the spaces in which we live has always been somewhat of a hobby for me. And I never bring into the house a thing that I don't love.
When we found out we were expecting, our attention turned from the communal living spaces to Roscoe's nursery. We had been dreaming about the look and feel of his room long before he was conceived when we encountered an inspirational find from Richmond's favorite toy store: a sweet, hand knit bunny made of wool. With his purchase, our color scheme was born. From there, we scoured stores online and on foot to piece-by-piece create a cool, eclectic, nature themed space fit only for our little one.
Now that Roscoe is here, I spend a majority of my day perched on our bed nursing, napping, or keeping Roscoe company while he sleeps. With all this time spent idle, I've become quite good at surfing the Internet one handed. With the nursery complete, a house that's practically full, and a new baby, I've quickly found my way in the baby marketplace.
We'll have to tip our fed ex and UPS delivery men well this Christmas!
A few of my recent favorite purchases:
Twirls and Twigs seahorse recycled cotton blanket
Vulli Sophie the Giraffe Teether
Picky Stickies
Winkel
Skwish
Shopping for items to furnish the spaces in which we live has always been somewhat of a hobby for me. And I never bring into the house a thing that I don't love.
When we found out we were expecting, our attention turned from the communal living spaces to Roscoe's nursery. We had been dreaming about the look and feel of his room long before he was conceived when we encountered an inspirational find from Richmond's favorite toy store: a sweet, hand knit bunny made of wool. With his purchase, our color scheme was born. From there, we scoured stores online and on foot to piece-by-piece create a cool, eclectic, nature themed space fit only for our little one.
Now that Roscoe is here, I spend a majority of my day perched on our bed nursing, napping, or keeping Roscoe company while he sleeps. With all this time spent idle, I've become quite good at surfing the Internet one handed. With the nursery complete, a house that's practically full, and a new baby, I've quickly found my way in the baby marketplace.
We'll have to tip our fed ex and UPS delivery men well this Christmas!
A few of my recent favorite purchases:
Twirls and Twigs seahorse recycled cotton blanket
Vulli Sophie the Giraffe Teether
Picky Stickies
Winkel
Skwish
July 1, 2009
Good Buy
We were cautioned by many that babies either love or hate swings. If it is the case that you buy a swing before the little one arrives, and he loves it: good buy. If he hates it: big waste of money....
We decided we would wait until Roscoe was born, then tow him to the store to get his opinion before purchase.
Six weeks later, while dreaming of having two working arms, I remembered that we had yet to pursue The Swing.
Last night Andy brought home this gem:
Today, I woke with Roscoe at 4:00 am. I nursed him, played with him, and as he was getting drowsy, I placed him in his new swing. For TWO HOURS he slept soundly.
I took full advantage and decided to bake my favorite cookies (6 of which I ate this afternoon, yum!), pump, and take a shower. Such a great start to the day!
Here's little Roscoe demonstrating the power of The Swing:
For those interested in the details, a link to a demo of the seat's many functions...wish they made one of these in my size.
We decided we would wait until Roscoe was born, then tow him to the store to get his opinion before purchase.
Six weeks later, while dreaming of having two working arms, I remembered that we had yet to pursue The Swing.
Last night Andy brought home this gem:
Today, I woke with Roscoe at 4:00 am. I nursed him, played with him, and as he was getting drowsy, I placed him in his new swing. For TWO HOURS he slept soundly.
I took full advantage and decided to bake my favorite cookies (6 of which I ate this afternoon, yum!), pump, and take a shower. Such a great start to the day!
Here's little Roscoe demonstrating the power of The Swing:
For those interested in the details, a link to a demo of the seat's many functions...wish they made one of these in my size.
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