I'll admit that if it weren't for the support, encouragement, and advocacy of my current boss I would have opted out of the workforce at the end of my 20 week maternity leave. With her help I negotiated a new title, and a part-time position (with content actually relevant to my education and interests), which allowed me to be a Momma first and foremost. I'll be forever grateful for the opportunity.
I've been fortunate to not only invest in my professional career over the past year and a half, but to also nurture my relationship with Roscoe. And I've grown to love this one foot in, one foot out arrangement. I couldn't ask for more.
Next week I'll begin a new schedule working four days a week, which leaves me feeling uneasy and maybe even a little anxious because I love love love my "off" days with Roscoe and I hate the idea of missing out on our time together.
On the other hand, I'm strategically front-loading my effort this fiscal year in order to take maternity leave at 37 weeks and then to be home with Roscoe and Little Sears once he/she is born. FOR GOOD!! Or at least until the mood strikes to opt back in.
I totally understand your feelings. I hate to leave Lilah, but at the same time I love my job and feel really lucky that I can do it part time. And I know that she LOVES the days she spends at daycare, so that makes me feel better.
ReplyDeleteAt least you know that there is an "end date" to your work because of the new baby, so if you are missing him like crazy or having a tough day, there is an end in sight! Good luck!
Oh good luck with all of the changes. I know I have loved the fact that I have a year before I have to go back to keep my job. I don't get full pay for the whole year but enough to make everything work. I am very excited for you!
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